How ironic issit tat i was the one who introduced the job and im working the least number of hours.You always have plans,plans that does nit include me.Time fr a change.I have had enough of you and how u simply dc.Promise myself that this will be the last time.no more giving in.Flying off on thurs and after tat its my turn.All this prolly dun cme under ur consideration.Fuck yoy yes you.I really give up.Gone one long enough.Wat a stupid fool.Not meabt to have a bestfriend maybe.

I do not know what i am anymore.I need to change.It has gone on for long enough.This time its fr real.

sooo three days of red camp is over and its been long since i updated...Very tiredd nt just physically.bt tiredd of people.like a certain group or bunch of yourll.when a simple convobgets to a fault spotting event.ohgod.i dunnid this shit.The change is becoming mre clear and i dk if im nt used to it or.....Seeemss baddd.Nvr used to ....ughhh  frgettt ittt....niddda bakeee and read and reflectttt and listen to songss and eat and drink frappucinno.Problems of a o lvl graduate.

yknaw wat u wont be pleased with watever i do.You think you are right carry on i dun give a fuck.so much fr helping i say i nt sincere.well fuck sincerity if i was nt sincere i wouldnt be doing it lah.fuck.

so annoyed.so much shit.so damn hungryy.i need.....act idk wat i need.prollly a more structured life.the life of a pig sucks

why so weak.the last two subj man.fk me.is thre anywhere i cn buy motivation :-(

Tired of waiting.waiting fr the god damn dough to rise.waiting fr it to bake.waiting for it to cool.waiting for replies.waiting fr everything.cant feel my hands from all tat kneading.never making bread by hand again.nvr gonna be so dumb again.who was i kidding.tired tired tired.why cant tat damn message just sink in.

yknow wat im done

does everybody have a bone to pick with me.damn piece of shit.

two days of rest and play.time fr me to kick start my engine and do mdm yati proud.uninstalling all those shits back cos all it has brought me is stresss.gonnna do it!yesssah!!

done revising for geog...hope i will be able to do tommorows paper.been sick today but still studied anyway so claps for tarif.as for chem......zero revision...gonna use morning and after geog to revise.chiong ahhh!damn you nose psle u like tis o lvl also likebtis...nehmind shld be mre positive.at least im still breathing.nights all!

say what you mean mean what you say

Papers have beeeen pretty goood so far.really very very tired of exams.cant wait fr tuesday before i can relax fr abit.amaths tmrw.nt aiming high just a b4 will do or maybe a b3.haha who am i kidding.did not even work fr it.After friday there woukf be no more pessons with mr goh.the most dedicated and awesome teacher i have ever met.everythings ending.no more classes with entire class no mre cazy ss prac.oh god everything is endingggg.not that im complaining kinda looking forqard to it in fact.hopefully my humans and eng dun let me dowm next yr jan.

so the first two papers of o lvls has beeen pretty manageable.ss tmrw.nid all the luck tat i can possibly get.been smeezing nom stop.feeling really uncomfortable.goodnight sweetdreams

First o lvl paper tmrw.hoping fr a manageable one and pretty darm nervous about it.gooodnight.gooodluck.

sleep

slept fr close to 10 hours today.the most sleep i have gotten in this whole week.english tmrw legggo!gottta bathe eat and study study study!

so many things to do so little time.starting to feel the preasure.body not cooperating headaches sneezimg fits.gotta bit on.three more weeks and its all over

tired as hell

tired

days like this when im tired frm all the studying and thres gonna be alot of pple cming over.nt tat im complaning bt its just so annoying.today has been quite a productive day....so tireddddd.

zzz

having a goddamn headache despite nt doing workbthe entire day.gotta strt revising.i dw to be dissapointed and regret when i receive my result.lets go!studyyyy

change

you have changed

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saw a side of him that i have never seen before.it may not be the sme to him but i treasure our friendship.done with two themes of SS and hella sleepy-.-

esssay

yeahhh done with the english essay.hope that it is fine and fits the topicso tiredtime to sleeep.goodnight

physics

physics is so damn tough im having a headache.time to crash fr da night

reality check

its been a long day.completed my chem papers and packed all my notes and materials into their respective files.doing all that makes me feeel and aware of how real o lvl is.shitloads of memorising and practising to be done.okay tarif.no mre texting fr fun.no more youtube.no more anything.get em physics and emaths done.u cant afford to screw it up cos four years have neen invested fr this shit.time to put my game face on.

today

started the day offf greattt bt it din end so well.din do wat i promised myself to do.gonnna wake up early tmrw to do as much hmwk as i can.and might will ne solely fr revision.this time i hope things will go according to plan:-).goooodnight everybody.have a greaaat night ahead.

dilemmma

to cycle or not to cycle tats the quetion.thres so many god damn hnwk bt i reallly wannna cycle.bt at tge sme time im madafaking lazyyyyyy.i shld go and get sme sunlight i guesss.today was a goood start to kick off sme serious studying.did maths and mt almost done with malay.finish up malay tmrw physics and chem.sunday will be humans day baby!offf to sleeeep.goooodnight.

to sleep or to study

laziness will be my downfall one fine day.so tired bt i noe its all an excuse.results have beeen really extre its either an A1 or a D 7.time to step up and study harder bt fr now i shld get sme sleep.teehee

zzzzzz

where do we go from here?decisionssssss.life decisions.omg annoyed by my own typing.hehe managed to finish maths hmwk and one eng paper.prolly doing another one before heading to sleeep.feeeels diffff to nt constantly see that yellow light blink at the top of mah phone.goonnnna misss misss neos physics lesson tmrw.pffft.pfffffffft

yooi

read through my lit block.super funny.feeeeling very restless bt i think its alll fr a greater good.tired n lazy day.gotto buck up.

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beeen so longggg simce i bloggged...baked my first legit cake today and im hella proud of myself...im tired.

zzzzzz

tired.annoyed.lazy.sleepy.hais.fillled with so much negativity that i could repel any positively charged item.change is happening for real and goddamn im tired.zzzzz

great day

Today has beeeen a very very great day.dinner woth half of kemmitment and followed by prayer session.glad fr the great company the laughs the foood and evry ting.

there is a freaking poa test tmrw and here am i doing nothing and gg to sleeep soooon.yesterday was a greaaaaat day today was not that bad.hari raya in threee days timeeeee.helllla excited fr alll ek beeeeef chicken kueh and everything.gonnna TRY to make use of the national day to do work and revise.feel like i havent beeen doing enoufh buttt weeeel laziness seems to rule.goodnight to myselffd.

to shut up or not thats the quetion

Too many apologies being delt out today.my fault fr some for others its just apologising fr the sake of minimising arguement.Why cant i just be quiet and a prim and proper student.Probably beacuse tat would not be me anymore.but we are living amongst people and among this people a common understanding and expectation have been derived and it sucks to have to follow tat conduct.its a constant battle between should i shut up and just live life silently or be vocal and cming off as rude even.though tats the true nature.decisions.decisions.decisions.

Hi

Did not manage to keep my mouth shut today.But its okay and there is still tmrw.told mr goh about having problems with the paper yesterday and he said not to worry about it.mixed feelings about that.Being in miss lees class fr geog.lets hope i dun offend her.itsss 45 mins to breakfast and im hella excited.

probably while scrutinissing the fault of others we have neglected our own flaws.today is one of those days where i feel like an idiot.a conplete idiot.suck at maths suck at science.lufes definitely great.and guess wat the dish i hate the most is fr dinner today.sigh.

Lazy

SOMEBODY NEEDS TO FREAKING CREATE A MEDICINE FOR LAZINESS.Tosay was one of those days i feel lazier thn a pig waiting to get slaughtered.Need to learn how to live my life man.afterall nothing in life is promised except death said by someone smart whom name i could not be arsed to remember.gooooodnight.thank you mom fr cooking my fav food.thank you everyone who interacted with meee.best wishes fr the teacher who is suspected of abusing and the child who is injured.To all those people critisizing the teacher pls stop being so mean.Fine she did someting wrong but u netizens dont have to act like u are perfect and wish unpleasant things upon her cos she did wat she did phyaically while u are cursing and swering like a pathetuc loser behind tat screen of yours.

Love peace swag yolo hip cool dope weed

Today was not quite a productive day.but i had funnn and tats all that matters.It is really amazing how stupidity can be deeeeply etched in smeone.amazes by stupidity and stubborness today.started off this blog with a rant fulll of negative connnotation.

So lets make this one mre pleasant.todayyy i realised i am very fortunate.i have practically travellwd the whole of singapore on my bike.i have been to west coast east coast bukit timah yiahun angmokio seletar kranji.really realky fortunate to be allowed to cycle to alll this places!todayyy immma happpy boii.Why seek smeting thta causes pain rather than perfect wat u have with people that genuinely care.after years in evg i think i can safely say i.have found a couple of people who would be thete for me and i wouldnt think tqice about being there fr them.soooo in all Im really really foetunateeee.thank youuuu to alll those who care and to those that dont your loss nt mineee:p