I do not know what i am anymore.I need to change.It has gone on for long enough.This time its fr real.

sooo three days of red camp is over and its been long since i updated...Very tiredd nt just physically.bt tiredd of people.like a certain group or bunch of yourll.when a simple convobgets to a fault spotting event.ohgod.i dunnid this shit.The change is becoming mre clear and i dk if im nt used to it or.....Seeemss baddd.Nvr used to ....ughhh  frgettt ittt....niddda bakeee and read and reflectttt and listen to songss and eat and drink frappucinno.Problems of a o lvl graduate.

yknaw wat u wont be pleased with watever i do.You think you are right carry on i dun give a fuck.so much fr helping i say i nt sincere.well fuck sincerity if i was nt sincere i wouldnt be doing it lah.fuck.

so annoyed.so much shit.so damn hungryy.i need.....act idk wat i need.prollly a more structured life.the life of a pig sucks

why so weak.the last two subj man.fk me.is thre anywhere i cn buy motivation :-(

Tired of waiting.waiting fr the god damn dough to rise.waiting fr it to bake.waiting for it to cool.waiting for replies.waiting fr everything.cant feel my hands from all tat kneading.never making bread by hand again.nvr gonna be so dumb again.who was i kidding.tired tired tired.why cant tat damn message just sink in.

yknow wat im done

does everybody have a bone to pick with me.damn piece of shit.